Me and my heart, we have issue.
Don't know if I should stay or nay.
Me and my heart, we got issues, issues.
We got issues.
I'm so confused! Now it's been more than a month since I started working in Krista Kindergarten and honestly, I am in love with my job and my students. I love what I'm doing and I really enjoy my time with all of them, including the teachers and helpers.
Soon, I'll be leaving to further my study. Deep in my heart, I wanna postpone it because I want to join their final year concert and graduation. Not exactly that one, but I just want to be part of them from A-Z. Postponing it means menggadaikan 1 year of my student life to be a labor.
Berbaloikah? That's the question. And, can I? Green or red light?
Whenever I thought of leaving Krista, I feel the pain in my heart. A big pain. I feel so lost and devastated. I want to stay, I want to be there. Though I won't be there during their graduation, at least I am there with them NOW when they are 5. Sounds like a big problem, right?
That's because I simply don't want to leave. Masih mau berkhidmat as chicher :( I want to see them grow, I want to see their progress, I want to see from fail to pass, I want to see everything! Just a thought of it mampu buat menangis, apatah lagi if I really leave. Kidding me? T__T
Top of it, how can I berpisah with my anak? #sigh
Hanya mampu berdoa dan berserah. If HE tells me to stay, then I will. If not, then I will not. Sobs..
For now, back to their art and craft!!! Muahahaha..
..::.. I miss my anak. Just now he went back without hugging me cos I was busy. Sobs. Rindu kamu, anak T__T